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Okay, I went to the gym last night and worked out for 45min and did so well! I killed it! I ate alot more than I should have yesterday, it really wasn’t bad food but it was more calories than I wanted to eat. But I still lost weight over night so that is awesome, it make only be a percentage of a pound but hey I will take it!

Tonight I am making dinner for David, I am going to make T-Bone steak, home made maccoroni salad, asperigas spears, mashed potatoes twice baked, and then a homemade apple pie!! I understand that is alot of food that probably isn’t GREAT for me but I can eat some of everything. I don’t even really like aple pie so that wont be hard to leave alone.

I plan to work out tonight too, I will go with David. That is one thing that is great about David he is supportive of my goals and he is also motivated and goes to the gym. It is nice to have a partner in a comon goal!

I have been kind of working on my house a little bit but I need to clean alot more, house work is a great way to burn calories. I need to straighten the living room and clean my bedroom!!! Then vaccum, I haven’t vaccumed for a bit too long…I need to wash the sheets in both my bedrooms. I also need to go to the store to buy somethings for dinner.

I also realize that this blog is basically me rameling on but I am writing this formyeslf so if you are reading this, sorry there isn’t anything that is helpful! LOL

 Ok well off I go to do some laundry and vaccum my house!

Ok, here we go my last 15lbs starts coming off today! Low carb diet is where I am going to put most of my effort, I am going to go to the gym as often as possible. If that looks like three times a week to five times a week. I did very well today for my diet. I had some rice and white toast but I am not going to beat myself up about it I am going to keep on trucking!

Another huge place for opportunity is going to be drinking, beer specificly. I will allow myself red wine and only one glass a night but NO BEER! At least for the next two months. I have a few big things coming up that I would like to be in better shape for. May I have a trip to Vegas, I want to get a huge tattoo down my side, getting breast augmentation sometime this year, and August I will be meeting my boyfriends extended family. I realize that those are all very silly reasons to loose weight but I feel that if its motivating me then it shouldn’t matter!

Tonight I came home after my four day vacation of eating crappy, and I weighed 215. I am actually happy with that weight because of how I ate I was thinking it would be quite a bit higher especially at night. So tomorrow morning it will obviously be even lower. I am going to stay focused on my mini goal which is 210 and my end goal of 199. My perfect weight is close to 188 but I am just going to go with this first and WHEN I achieve it I will goal myself again depending on how I feel my body looks.

As far as the gym goes I will be working out at thirty min a day on the new walking/eliptical machine. It is great because it offers you the ability to use your arms both pushing and pulling. It is more of an all around work out vs just doing legs.

Blogging and tracking my food will be a huge focus for me as well. Okay well I think I have spit out enough for the night I am going to shower and hit the hay! Love you Buddy Slim

Finally, I got a work out buddy! And a darn good one. Shes my bf from high school, so we know one another good enough to push each other. She lives honestly a hop skip and a jump away from me. Also between the two of us our exercise choices are awesome. Our plan is to work out four days a week. She is married and has two babies so the weekends are off limits which is okay with me because of the “weekend boyfriend” hehe. So we did bob’s yoga, way harder than you’d think, to start our plan out. We both fully intend to work out tomorrow after work!

So I’ve lost 55lbs guys! The biggest help in loosing that weight was loosing my boyfriend! No he didn’t die, he cheated. At the time I was sososo hurt, but thank God he did. After he wasn’t there always pushing fastfood down my throat the weight started to come off. Also I was so miserable I didn’t even know it, until my depression symptoms started to go away, my cravings for bad food vanished. So all in all I lost 300lbs and it was the best thing that has EVER happened to me! Thank u God

Ok so I have given myself a challenge! I am going to go to the gym EVERYDAY for the remaining days of Feburary. I started today and yes I went to the gym! I’ve been just sitting at the same weight for weeks now and I’m doing something about it! So I’m trying to go every morning before breakfast. Now if I wake up late or I’m just to tired thats ok, I WILL GO before dinner! Well day one is down, I’m excitted to see my body change over this next few weeks! Ok buddies, help me do this for myself!

I’m tired of stepping on the scale and seeing little improvement! I’m tired of waving good bye and my lower arm decides it would like to wave also! I’m tired of waiting to buy new clothes because I am going to loose the weight! I’m tired of hanging over my pants! I’m tired of buying special bra’s so my back fat doesn’t stick out! I’m tired of being self conscious when I’m naked. I’m tired of being the heavy beautiful girl! I’m tired of being within lbs of my boyfriend’s weight! I’m tired of wanting fast food or cookies and then beating myself up about eating them! I’m tired of having cravings for food that is not needed! I’m tired of being weak! I’m tired of having to wear shorts instead of a sexy swim suit! I’m tired of dancing and have things jiggle that aren’t even supposed to be there! I’m tired of my HUGE belly! I’m tired of saying “oh I’ll have to pass on the pizza/cake/drinks, I’m on a diet”! I’m tired of not being able to buy clothes off the rack! I’m tired of people telling me, “you’re not fat you’re just really tall”! I’m tired of skipping the gym! I’m tired of the constant arguments I have with myself! I’m tired of not being able to be picked up and carried! I’m tired of sucking in! I’m tired of covering up! I’m tired of failing at loosing weight! I AM TIRED OF FAILING!

I am 5lbs away from my mini goal! I am so happy. I was wondering when I hit my mini goal if I can set another mini goal? Please let me know becuase I feel that the mini goal just helps me keep on truckin. Let me know what you guys have experienced! Thanks for all the support you all kick butt!

How do I push myself in the gym? I just bought a great ipod but I’m affraid it may soon fail. I need something more than just do it this time. I am so tired after/before work I just want to chill out and I know its becuase of my lack of exercise! I know I have to, want to, need to, but I really need an extra push something to keep me going…anything! If you have ideas you use hook a girl up I need to sheed this eXtra weight I have! Any advise is so so so much appricated!

My girlfriend got me a sclaes for my christmas present! Since she gave it to me I’ve lost 6lbs! Thank goodness for practical friends! Merry christmas to everyone who celebrates and Happy holidays to the rest!